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[funeralcrasher]

...at last, a Monday I didn't mind awaking to.

I need to finish organizing my room today, which I rearranged last night with Dara's help. I've yet to decide what to do about my walls, so for now they shall remain bone-white. Tonight I plan on seeing the Vanishing @ mjq.

Before I do anything with my room however, I need to sit in front of the computer and finish something for blu_muse... If you're reading this I hope you'll forgive me for dragging my feet.. I'm just going to simplify the database & make an admin area for you... I coded it a lot fancier than you probably expected, but I can scale it back easily enough. I know you've needed this for a long time.

I found myself reading old usenet posts today becuase I remembered when you lived here how much there was going on all of the time. The scene is so quiet now, except for the same-old, same-old electrogoth events. I don't know if I have the personality for any of this, but I hope that my efforts inspire others to be part of something new, and I hope others realize how important diversity and inclusion is to our scene.

Its hard to believe Atlanta goths actually had something to do every day of the week... And only four short years ago.

I wish there were others living here like you, aquaknot, entertainme_nt, who share your endless enthusiasm for the scene and your kind, accepting nature.

Anywho.. off to 'work' :o)

Comments

[blu-muse.livejournal.com]

I'm a spaz, you know. I told you weeks ago I'd look at that stuff and call you and I haven't because I've been hermiting and drowing in self-drama and self-pity. Sometimes I just need to shut down for a while and let everything settle on the bottom, I think. I haven't been out for... FOUR months. Wacky. So I havent looked at it lately. Do I need to? I'm sorry for letting you do this blindly without input. I really am not much of a help...

As for enthusiasm for the scene -- I wish I hadn't lost mine along the way. I gave up on them.

I do have some fond memories though - and Mike is still the best promoter I ever knew. If only other people had taken his high standards into their own clubs it might have worked.

Yikes!

[aquaknot.livejournal.com]

Thanks Blu, that means a lot since you've known quite a few. Over the last six months I've gotten to know some career club staff (nowhere even near our scene!) and they are unbelievably professional. They work mainstream/buckhead joints and it's awesome to see how they do it. Their competition is in some ways pretty fierce. Most of us working in the scene were only ever part-timers (or well, worse) though I think Kary and/or Jsin made a go of doing it full time at some point. But if we had someone like the people above promoting a few years back, it would have made things a lot better. The goth scene would certainly not have become the laughing stock of the Atlanta indie scene as quickly. In the end though, the money isn't there to attract those kind of people--we're a small niche market made up predominantly of the terminally broke.

Re: Yikes!

[pkbarbiedoll.livejournal.com]

we're a small niche market made up predominantly of the terminally broke.
...as I literally count the change in my car to come up with enough money for the door tonight at MJQ. lol.

[pkbarbiedoll.livejournal.com]

I should have everything ready by this weekend if not before. The new form will just have artistname & review_text. I'll still be able to break them up by month or reviewer.

One of my many weaknesses is taking on certain projects which are doomed to failure.. for whatever reason I choose not to see how useless my time & energy actually is; I only see this stupid dream I have where everything starts working again and we live happily ever after. If I were smarter I'd quit now and give up on this stupid idea of helping establish a vibrant, diverse community of.. un-goths.. people interested in music and picking each other up when we fall, and sharing laughs together. Instead we(they) seem far more interested in scene drama, building walls and laughing at each other.

So I'm going to enjoy this new thing as long as it lasts.. even if it's only one night, and turns into a hip-hop or another graver night the following week. I should really begin thinking about getting back into school full time & transitioning, and somehow come up with money for an expensive surgery.