funeralcrasher | (no subject)

...at last, a Monday I didn't mind awaking to.

I need to finish organizing my room today, which I rearranged last night with Dara's help. I've yet to decide what to do about my walls, so for now they shall remain bone-white. Tonight I plan on seeing the Vanishing @ mjq.

Before I do anything with my room however, I need to sit in front of the computer and finish something for

blu_muse... If you're reading this I hope you'll forgive me for dragging my feet.. I'm just going to simplify the database & make an admin area for you... I coded it a lot fancier than you probably expected, but I can scale it back easily enough. I know you've needed this for a long time.

I found myself reading old usenet posts today becuase I remembered when you lived here how much there was going on all of the time. The scene is so quiet now, except for the same-old, same-old electrogoth events. I don't know if I have the personality for any of this, but I hope that my efforts inspire others to be part of something new, and I hope others realize how important diversity and inclusion is to our scene.

Its hard to believe Atlanta goths actually had something to do every day of the week... And only four short years ago.

I wish there were others living here like you,

aquaknot,

entertainme_nt, who share your endless enthusiasm for the scene and your kind, accepting nature.

Anywho.. off to 'work' :o)

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I should have everything ready by this weekend if not before. The new form will just have artistname & review_text. I'll still be able to break them up by month or reviewer.

One of my many weaknesses is taking on certain projects which are doomed to failure.. for whatever reason I choose not to see how useless my time & energy actually is; I only see this stupid dream I have where everything starts working again and we live happily ever after. If I were smarter I'd quit now and give up on this stupid idea of helping establish a vibrant, diverse community of.. un-goths.. people interested in music and picking each other up when we fall, and sharing laughs together. Instead we(they) seem far more interested in scene drama, building walls and laughing at each other.

So I'm going to enjoy this new thing as long as it lasts.. even if it's only one night, and turns into a hip-hop or another graver night the following week. I should really begin thinking about getting back into school full time & transitioning, and somehow come up with money for an expensive surgery.