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[funeralcrasher]

I envy you Rob.

I haven't drawn on my skin in a long long time but i feel like i'm getting closer and closer to doing that again. I fucking hate life right now. I fucking can't stand it.

I'm too God Damned old for young deathrockers to care about.
Too god damned strange for most people to care about.
too fucking pathetic for anyone to take a chance on.
God Damned too goth for punks.
Fucking too punk for goths.

And my fucking roommate had the nerve to think that the reason I complain about not having any scene here is becuase... .because I am afraid nobody will show up at this Stupid non-existant band's gigs. Well I might had I band to begin with, but I don't, because god wishes to torture me just as he has all of my life.

What's to live for? I repulse everyone I'm remotely interested in, I have thousands and thousands of dollars of debt, I couldn't buy my way into my own band, I have absolutely nothing except being alive and I just don't see any point in that right now.

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[djaesthetic.livejournal.com]

you're just right to me, yo! lol
*encouragement*

fuck anyone who wont give you a chance... you're more goth than most of the 'goths' in this city, anyway... stand proud...