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Jun. 6th, 2004 09:20 amI don't even want to go to drop dead now. Anyone want a ticket?
Last week we started recording stuff for a demo.. and *poof* this weekend its like we never did anything last week. i hoped we could work on that again this weekend but guess what? nope. no interest whatsoever. and *i'm* not going to force anyone to play songs they seem disinterested in. just a matter of time before that person fucks off too.
whats the use. i've been ignored. nobody likes a whiner. everone likes acheivers and i'm definately not that.
so why not go ahead and defreind me while youre at it.
I am freaking out because nothing I do seems to matter. Nobody wants to play with me. I've tried and tried and tried and I feel like a worthless peice of shit because nothing is happening.
If I hadn't already played in three bands, been on stage dozens and dozens of times, recorded a record in the studio... maybe then I wouldn't know what I'm missing. But I have, and I do.
Meanwhile you're thinking that i freak like this all of the time since I'm losing it right now. maybe i don't deserve to be in a band because of the way i'm reacting to seeing everyone else's dreams come true except for mine, and having certain people rub it in my face every chance they get.
Last week we started recording stuff for a demo.. and *poof* this weekend its like we never did anything last week. i hoped we could work on that again this weekend but guess what? nope. no interest whatsoever. and *i'm* not going to force anyone to play songs they seem disinterested in. just a matter of time before that person fucks off too.
whats the use. i've been ignored. nobody likes a whiner. everone likes acheivers and i'm definately not that.
so why not go ahead and defreind me while youre at it.
I am freaking out because nothing I do seems to matter. Nobody wants to play with me. I've tried and tried and tried and I feel like a worthless peice of shit because nothing is happening.
If I hadn't already played in three bands, been on stage dozens and dozens of times, recorded a record in the studio... maybe then I wouldn't know what I'm missing. But I have, and I do.
Meanwhile you're thinking that i freak like this all of the time since I'm losing it right now. maybe i don't deserve to be in a band because of the way i'm reacting to seeing everyone else's dreams come true except for mine, and having certain people rub it in my face every chance they get.
