djing

nathan & trey both probably know what i'm talking about when I say that djing really sucks sometimes.

see, we play really great music that we'd dance to,, but then we're stuck behind a mixer instead.. we know that no other dj plays anything like our own sets. and sometimes on a slow weekday night the dance floor clears away while people get drinks & chat.. and i wonder to myself, why is it that people only get up to dance for songs they've heard a gazzillion times before.

Last week i felt like the only way i could keep patrons happy was to play old familiar songs.

Even when i work in a really great deathrockish song, like Murderer's Dance by Sleeping Children in the midst of a few classics.. people immediately shut down and fuck off to wherever, until the next Dead Can Dance or Cure song is played. If ya don't know the Sleepig Children song, imagine a dancier version of London After Midnight/Cinema Strange.. very noticable beat, rhythmic drums/bass.. flowing, dynamic synth lines.. lower male vocals.. why anyone *wouldn't* want to dance to this is beyond me.. well.. its new. and doesn't have the scene's stamp of approval yet.

i believe that if more people loosened their inhibitions and danced to unfamiliar tunes they'd discover gothic rock (or "death rock" or "post-punk" or whatever else you wanna call it) is just as fun as anything else.. plus its something *different*.

every rock song isn't dancable (and thats no different from ebm).. i know this.. but that's my job, to find dark rock songs that *are* dancable, to introduce new music to people who supposedly are there to hear new music. I just wish i could clone myself and dance to my own sets so people would see that it is at least possible if not enjoyable.

feh.
I wish for one night could have just 30 minutes of nothing but music I'd ordinarily spin.. not to take anything away from any other dj's sets, which so far have been really great too. I'd like to lose myself for a little while too...

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oh.. somebody was sent to me who supposedly was really interested in playing with TftD. we talked last week and he said he would like to meet with me today, and he would call me Friday to confirm where and when.

of course, he didn't call.

I wish somebody would give a chance. For fucks sake, the demos I made were recorded at home.. they sound like dren... but they are *demos*. I have great work ethic and I so want this to happen. why won't anyone play with me?

why is it that everyone else gets to play in a band taht wants to, except me. why? i'm a fucking nobody is why. and i'm "old" on top of that. and i'm "fake" too. i guess i should wonder why i'm so suprised that nobody will play with me instead.

A common theme amongst...

Christians?

As I wrote in the thread above, Christians aren't the only group of people capable of offensive behaviour towards those they fundmentally disagree with. Not by a long shot. (ya know.. calling ftm's "she" and mtf's "he" for example)

I bet there are greater numbers of non-Christians who do the same for other reasons. Demographically speaking I've expereienced more of that sort of behaviour from Christians than any other culture or religion. Hands down.

Even if they appear kind on the surface given enough time they will proudly display their driving need to show through words that will obviously offend, that they disagree.

I've had this happen so much.. probably because (maybe stupidly) I loosely think of myself as being xian too.. just a lot less hateful and more accepting than most.


What these Christians don't see however.. or maybe they do, and they just don't give a Fuck... is that every time they use incorrect pronouns for instance, they push me further away from God and all they claim to believe in.

If that sort of behaviour is a manifestation of what they claim to believe in, I want to have nothing to do with their god.

My God is love.

No not that "Endless"...

thirteen13 and I had our first The Endless rehearsal in 8 years this afternoon.. We went over four songs to begin preparing for what will hopefully be a reunion at drop dead.. I haven't spoken with the promoter in a while, so we're hoping she didn't forget speaking with us a couple of months ago. (*bites fingernails*) If not then... oh well. La malédiction d'Adrya strikes again.

Maybe we'll find an opening slot around here once or twice to get this out of our system.

In case you're wondering what The Endless sound like, I have three songs available for download. All were recorded in 1995.

Mass Suicide
Exterminate
Pray

We recorded a few things today.. quickly.. line-in guitar & bass, so the quality isn't great.. for that matter the playing is rather shabby as well. *much* improved versions should be available by the end of next month. Nothing Personal (scratch take from this afternoon).