Frozen Warnings

ps, sorry in advance for mispellings and poor grammer... it's late and i can't see my screen all that well.....

Good things happened today. First of all I got to meet and hang out with on eof my online friends, Zelda. We went to a few different places to shop, and ended up in 5 points before we called it a day.

Since I was in little five and tonight is Tuesday I decided to go to Revolution. I was wearing my typical casual outfit today... black velvet skirt, black top, foudation, liner and dark lippie. Revolution is a group that is led by Jay Bakker, son of Jimi whom we've all become familiar with. Jay's a preacher now too, however he is nontypical in tha the has tatoos all over and plays in a punk band. His ministry reaches out to punks, goths, streetkids, normals, and whoever else that comes. Everyone shares a common deep rooted distrust of church and a profound disliking of religion. All that i've talked with there have been burned by religion at some point in their lives and a lot of them don't go to church anymore , excetp for Jay's group.

Well.. being the distrusting person I am with anything that deals with spirituality... I was a little wary when they said that they accept anyone and everyone no matter what they look like or listen to or whatever.. I've heard that crap before, usually shortlby before being told that i wasn't welcome to come back because of the way I dressed or opinions I had.

My first trip there I went in a tshirt and black leggings... kinda avaerage gothwear for a boy or a girl. No comments really.. though I did get a few "your name is...?) when I introduced myself as Adrya. no big deal, but i wanted to go back as -me- to see what sort of reaction I got. I liked the message but was very afraid their group would turn out to be like most of the other hypocritical, legalistic bullshit christian groups i've expereinced so far.

i really needed to see what these people are made of, if they really beleive and practice what they say about acceptance. i hadn't planned on going either.. it just sorta happened that i was in 5 points about the same time the service started... so in I went.

The guys at the door met me and said hello... i asked if Dara was around as I'd talked with her the last time there (a gothic girl who helps out with revolution). She wasn't, but they guys asked if i'd stay around anyhow. i said i would. i talked with them for a few minutes before wandering in. i stood for a few minutes and noticed some guy staring at me. he got up and walked towards me. i' thinking.. great. here's where it goes to shit. he asked if i was the person running the coffee bar. lol. i said no, and the waitress came up and helped him out. he iinvited me to sit with him and his wife.. he was from Charlotte and was visiting to see how Jay's service went as he wanted to do the same for the punk scene there. they were both very nice, and i'm glad i got to talk with them.

Jay was still going over Galations tonight.. in a nutshell stating that there are only two rules that we should try to follow.... Love God with all our hearts and love our neighbors (enemies) as we do ourself. Deal with glations is that paul was coming down on some religious hypocrits of the day, kind alike pharasees, because they were trying to tell others that there was more to salvation than simply asking for it. ie, you had to obey rules in addition to asking for salvation - which is bullshit. It was a great message and towards the end a lot of people spoke of their own experiences and asked some tough questions... with the freedom that comes wiht salvation -- misconception is that xianity is a bunch of dos and don'ts. - some outsiders may look at a christian who is taking advantage of this freedom... smoking drinking cursing, ect and wonder what is so different from a christiian and anyone else then -- if xians still drink smoke, ect. difference is love. that's it! xians are sinners and probably screw up more than non-xians do. we are given freedom though Grace. where one person is in his/her walk is completely not applicable to someone else in the same situation... it isn't the sin so much as the relationship that person has with God. God will convict that person of a particular sin if/when He sees fit. There was so much said tonight.... very cool service, i am hoping it was recorded as i'd like to listen to it again to soak it all in.

Yea, i may have receied a couple of double takes and "your name is what?"'s but oh frelling well. priice I pay for being myself i suppose. i better get used to it too. nobody was ugly though, nor did i see any malicious stares... i was looking for it.

At the end i bought a Revolution tshirt and added in a small donation to the ministry.. i know that i'm probably quite a challenge to some of the poeple who go to the mettings, but i so need a place like that where i can meet with others of like mind when it comes to church and religion.. i hope tonight was not a fluke..

i'm tired. i need some sleep...