After sleeping on it

[funeralcrasher]

I'm pretty sure I don't want to live much longer in this bitter cold world. I do not have strength to take my own life, but if I did - today would be the day.

All I wanted was platonic love, a sense of belonging.. a family. All I recieved were doors slammed in my face, over and over and over. I'm ready for this to end.

Comments

[pkbarbiedoll.livejournal.com]

it feels like i'm fighting a losing battle with certain people in my life. when i need them, they aren't there or minimalize whatever it is i'm going through. pat answers. talk is cheap.
i need to stop subjecting myself to this. and them.

thank you Jake, i appreciate what you and others wrote.

[cherylcrt.livejournal.com]

You just answered your own question -
"I need to stop subjecting myself to this - and them".
I wish you could see that you deserve better than what (or who) you currently have in your life that's upsetting you so much.
I know you're hurting, but sttatus_quo is right. Change, baby, change.
Make life what YOU want it to be? Who said you don't deserve the best? You do, and you have to be the FIRST person to think that way.
I'm a really big believer in, if you think for it, it'll come. (I guess it's sort of visualization, whatever..)
I do wallow in pity myself sometimes, but then I think to myself how much worse I COULD have it.
The things that make me sad, angry, and yes, even self-destructive are when I want so badly to help someone, and I can't.