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[funeralcrasher]

What is up with me? I normally have things pretty well together.. Today I've spontaneously started crying several times. My friend Fawn thinks it could be my quitting hormones (for my upcoming back surgery).. maybe so..

I fiid myself seriously making plans to see all of my friends & family before the 21st, and I'm wondering if I should be making arrangements on what to do with my possesions and debts and whatnot. Am I going crazy? God I wish I had someone here right now just to hold my hand and tell me everything is going to be ok. I'm so freaking scared.

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[mb2u]

I think it is a combination of being off hormones and being worried about the surgery. Your body is trying to adapt to a change in your hormonal balance, and it's always hard. Plus, surgery is always something that causes us to be concerned.

If it makes you feel better to see your family and to make arrangements, do it. But realise that you'll probably not die, that you'll recover, and you'll be a lot better off than you are now.

I wish I could give you a hug right now, to hold your hand. Just know that I will be thinking about you, okay?